Wanting to be wanted

Dear God, Ya Rabbul Alamin

I wonder what it is like to be wanted by someone? I imagine it must be a great feeling. In my life so far, as You know too well more than anyone, I have always done the wanting, never been wanted by anyone.

Hope I am still not saying that closer to my death. I guess life carries on and time will not wait and for some people, some things will not be a reality, but it would be nice to experience this just once in my life, even if it is for a short while. Please.

Your humble servant, Nasreen

Hope in the least likeliest of places

Dear God,  Ya Rabbul Alamin

It’s been a while since I thought of You …

But I smiled to myself the other day as I remembered You. I was on the train and was admiring the view (.. well the fields, the odd horse, graffiti wall, a few sheep here and there as they were whizzing by). Despite the speed of the train, I noticed one field in particular which was fairly rundown and you could tell that it was virtually abandoned, but there in front of me was a most heart-warming spectacle. In that field, where nothing else was growing, not even grass, I saw a bunch of daffodils. Beautiful daffodils. There must have been over a dozen or so huddled together. I thought about how hope and the most unexpected can exist and survive in the most unconventional of places and that beauty is there all around in the most least likeliest. Your Signs are there, I know they are. Forgive me for when I am ignorant and blind to them.

Please give me strength to hold onto this, lately it is becoming tough. Please grant me the courage to keep going.

Thanks,
Your humble servant, Nasreen